In case you hadn't noticed, I've been throwing myself a pity party lately. And frankly, I think I've earned it.
As Ally McBeal once said when asked why her problems were so much more important than anyone else's, "Because they're mine."
But all parties must come to an end, particularly those of the pity variety.
My chemo grievances
I saw my oncologist today, and discussed the latest annoyances I've been dealing with, namely foot pain (sensitive skin means I'm developing calluses faster than a normal human being should), and arm pain on the side I'm getting my IVs in. Both are totally normal for someone going through chemo, which is the answer I expected.
We talked about the switch to Taxol, now that I'm done the A/C portion (Adriamiacin Cytoxan) of my ACT treatment, and the side effects I'm likely swapping the nausea and other delights for.
The oncologist noted that some women find Taxol less, well, taxing than A/C. He said he hoped this would be the case for me adding, "You're breezing through your treatments so far."
Easy, breezy, beautiful chemo girl
As I walked back to work, I thought, "Breezing? Really? Maybe if we're talking about a smelly breeze coming from a pulp and paper mill."
Then I thought about it. I never cracked open the in-case-of-emergency nausea meds. I never puked. I had some discomfort in my mouth, but have been able to keep mouth sores at bay with baking soda rinses. I have felt well enough to return to work. (Let's hope I didn't just jinx myself by putting that in writing)
Though it's been challenging at times juggling schedules, for the most part, I've had help when I've needed it.
Before I left work, my friend and colleague Tony asked me how my appointment went. I told him, and he said, "You're a trooper."
And Abba's Super Trooper popped into my head. Maybe because Abba transports me to a simpler time, dancing in one friend's living room, and dressing up for fashion shows with another friend.
Abba reminds me of a friend in grade 8 who started an Abba fan club because it was lame to like Abba by then, making a fan club super hilarious to our pubescent minds. I'm pretty sure there wasn't one kid in our class who wasn't a member.
If you haven't watched the video yet, do so now. At the very least, you'll get a kick out of the outfits.
One day I know I'll be "feeling like a number one" again.